this love came back to me

he drives, silent. he smiles, sweet.

he whispers a song, I listen to it carefully.

quite often, I stare at him deeply without even realising.

we were on the way to a long drive for an overnight trip. it was the second time we met, i don’t know whether or not it was a good decision. it was spontaneous and reckless. at the same time, it felt good, comfortable, and heartwarming.

this is like a dream, i said.

this is not a dream, he replied.

quiet. then i continued,

do you want to know what i have been thinking?

“if this is a dream, i wish i could never wake up”

then, he only replied with a smile.

i saw beautiful scenery along the way, i thought it felt like i was in a movie. views that i thought i could only see on the screen, then i saw him beside me.

in my head,

i once let him go before, i knew deep down inside he would come back.

and yes, that day he was with me.

that night he was there, sitting in front of me, sleeping soundly beside me.

he turned up to be a love song i have always listened to. a dream i have always wished for.

he asked, “why?” why is him? why do i like him?

it took me a second to reply, there are a lot of things i like about him but i was too shy to say it out loud. so, i chose the safest answer.

“first, you are my type, and we have things in common.. and.. i had a hunch.”

“hunch?”

“yes.”

a gut feeling that i can’t even describe. i just knew i would love him in the future. thing that feels true, but it has yet to happen. that moment i realised, God had sent him to me in this phase of life for a reason.

on the way back, i could only listen to the pounding in my heart. knowing he is now in my reality, is enough. feeling his hands holding mine, that i wished time would stop.

i am still figuring out, but there must be a reason why i smile every time i listen to love songs that remind me of him. there must be a reason why we ended up meeting each other. there must be a reason why i could not deny all these feelings.