have you ever been mad to your future partner?

Yes, I have always been.

When everything feels so tough. I wonder why do I have to suffer alone while others have their companion beside them on their hard time.

I wonder why God has sent a cat into my life. Is He telling me not to trust human? Or, is He telling me to prepare myself? Or, is He telling me to be the best version of myself before finally meeting my partner?

I wonder what was my future partner doing while I was struggling with my life? Was he suffering too? Or, was he enjoying his life with someone else that time?

Just so he knows, I’m not happy now. Why is he coming to my life so late?

Why can’t I meet him soon? Why do I have to feel loneliness for such a long time? What’s so good on him? Is he worth the wait?

What takes him so long to get here?

I want an answer.

He must be worth the wait. I’m so angry if he’s not.